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This hasn't been the best of summers. The economy is spiraling
downwards, our political climate is deplorable; even the weather
has been bizarrely bad. The terrible event that affected me
the most, however was the
that occurred in mid-July. I don't know why -- perhaps it
was the innocence of the victims, or the warped and
frightening religious overtones -- but the bombing and cold-blooded
murder (especially the manner in which it was done) really
captures much of what I feel. The pain present in the image is palpable.
As a father myself, the pain is also unimaginable. I've known family
friends who have lost a son or daughter, and I honestly don't know
how they can survive such a thing. And to have it wrapped in
something so twisted, so horrible...
What can I do in the face of such an atrocity? Nothing, really,
but sometimes getting involved in a project can help introduce
some distance-through-abstraction. nor helped to do this,
especially the creation of the sounds. All of the thunder-like and
'environmental' sounds in the composition come from spectral decompositions
of the piano chords heard in the piece. The process of working
with the sounds and the music-technology I used to produce
them gave me a bit of emotional breathing space.
How does this help deal with badness? I don't know, and
making a ten-minute long patch of odd noises
is a pretty paltry response to a tragedy like Norway. Or most
anything, to tell the truth.
I was going to end this with some portentous statement like
"But that's what I do". Jeez.